13/8/2010 - 17/8/2010 (5 days Dad's funeral) we have cemented Dad at 光明山。
My dad passed away due to Hypertensive Heart Disease. My dad 2 yrs ago hv high blood pressure,
didn't go for follow up. Despite we hv been nagging him to go for check up,
he will ans: k, I will later.
This is a sudden shock for us! He have fallen down when he is sweeping the lorry,
n at that moment he have opened his eyes wide as if no enough air
n at that moment he doesnt have any heartbeat.
Contractor send dad to Nuh. In hospital ,docs Trying to get his heartbeats back for 1 hr,
but in e end is declared death at 0900hrs.
I received call from my cousin (my dad work for my cousin's dad),
telling me that dad have fainted at jurong while working,
cousin's dad n mummy is rushing over to Nuh. I called mum at 0915hr, didn't ans.
SMS her, replied: yr father passed away Liao.'
at the very moment, I'm shocked,stunned n show QY my SMS, n cried out loud.
My sale-manager volunteer to send me to NUH.
My pending docs passed on to my manager while I'm crying.
After everything, rushed to hospital. In the car,
I'm crying sobbing in grief.
He keeps on telling me to tk it easy bcos he knows feeling of loss of dad 6yrs ago.
Reached nuh, mum is crying too. Lost of words.
We are waiting for families members to get down here n see dad together.
My 2 bros rushed down from hm n sch. Families rushed from work.
All members gathered we r brought to a small rm where my dad's lying there motionless,cold,bared.
His belonging is placed beside his leg wrapped.
We are all crying. My big bro is hitting his heart,crying n said my heart is so pain,好心痛！
my youngest bro is crying n said: I saw papa this morning happily go to work,y die jus like this??
My mum is sobbing ,stoned at a side. I'm crying loudly painfully.
No words can describe our feeling. Losing dad who we loves so much ,
makes us can't accept the facts that he is gone forever.
Every families members is crying too.
Luckily, we hv our cousin's dad to help us up with dad's funeral.
Everything is fine at the 1st to 3rd day of funeral.
At the 4th day, mum saw a white butterfly flying around n
suddenly at 6.45am a moth flew straight landed on dad's candle side.
For Chinese, we said , it's dad soul n hv come to see us.
Later at afternoon we hv a misunderstanding quarrel with weirdo neighbour,
the late 40s wife cursed my dad once in e early morning : 这么年轻，不要工作，zhao死zhao好。
my mum said her we understand Cantonese.
She shocked n denied. But I tell her,god sees n hear, my dad is looking after us.
My cousin's dad told her, if she were to bully us again, we'll pray to dad n
ask whether did our neighbour do anything to us.
She scared n denied. She said , all is in the past,一笔勾消。
I replied her, when my dad is alive how u all hv cursed my dad n disturb us.
No 一笔勾消！
my dad is looking after us n
seeing how u all bully us.
They feared n called police. But we dun give a damn bcos we hv records of this conflicts
n all calls is made by me. Only this 1 time they called police, in e end police came.
My cousin's dad told police officers that now my mum hv lost a husband,
children have lost a dad. Pls do help to assist them if the neighbours is giving them problems.
All neighbours at 2nd n 3rd floor knew this family is weirdos!
All disliked them even her daughter is influence by this weirdo's parent. Their daughter is same age as me,single. She thoughts that bcos she have studied hight education then me,
flip-flops English.
She said me: 你是没有用的女儿，嫁出去的女儿。 i replied, 你自己也是女儿，难道你不嫁？
Gods sees n hear. Better see itself before saying me..
You 十三点！.
they can't tk it n report police. But hack care them anyway they r weirdos!
I told my mum n 2bros, if they were to create problem tk out dad's photo n
tell them to tell dad n call 999 too. I believe this will make they fear.
They always create problem every 2-3weeks.
Hmm.. Shall stop here
.-- 17/8/10 --
sending off dad to burn. I cried non stop, almost fainted!
Lucky I hv aunt n cousin to hold me left n right.
The moment dad is gg to push into fire, I really lost control n
couldn't stop crying shouting dad, I'm sorry!
Y I'm sorry?
It's bcos I haven't spent enough time to filial piety him.
I dun hv chance to tell him i forgiven him n i love him v much like before ,
nvr to see him,listen to his voices etc.
Memories flew into my mind just like a movie from young!
All bad memories hv been forgiven n erased.
My mind n heart nw only hv good sweet lovely memories.
Dad, you have to go in peace n I will take v good care of mummy, n 2 bros.
We have forgiven you! And We always loves you!
Rayaan with Gong Gong =)
In my Dad's wallet,
He Loves us very much!
last Photo at 01.08.2010
before he is gone forever ........
My dad most happy moment is
when im married off...
The purple long sleeve shirt ,
we give him to wore when he's lying in coffin.
