help?

ytd , off my hp after work.

Didnt wanna go back hm...

so stayed outside till late.

i wanna go back mummy hse, but hesitate.

hubby called me, smsed me.

i saw & i shed tears.

Im wondering shall i leave Toh family? shall i leave him?

he done nothing wrong.

Not his faults..

but im hurts.

not hurt by him.

in sms, he asking me to think of baby think of him,

dun leave him.

he cried. he worried. he is sad.

he tell me how much he loves me.

be happy with him can le.

dun bother others.

** Mummy ytd ask me go see doc,

afraid that i will get chian jian you yu zheng ,

bcos i had been crying now & then**

Shall i leave him or shall i stay on?

keep popping in my mind.

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Reach hm at 11.45pm

Actually wanna pack my clothes , & go to my Cousin hse.

Mil & Fil is in living room,

1st thing ask me is ,

y cant get through ur hp?

I replied, my hp low batt.

Y so late come back?

I smiled & walk into my rm.

i cried again.

before went out my rm actually i packed some of my clothes,

but mil is still at living rm...so i hesitated & dry my tears,

talking to my baby boy.

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after talking to baby boy, im more relax & it already 12am plus.

I sms my cousin & said im not gg anymore.

Went to bath , mil ask me , what happens to u?

I just smile & walk straight to bathrm.

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I dun wanna think much..but cant.

No one knows my characters,

t4 will think im living in my own world.

I do want to live in peace,

but dunno y my life is suffering all those nonsenses,stress?

Can i escape toh's hse?

Can i escape elsewhere?

Juz with Baby Rayaan & me?

Can i die? can i leave this world?

Can i?

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Actually im a happy mummy , happy wife...

but now turns into like this...

i just wanna leave...